t-minus 8 days

Well, it's been a week since I posted last. Again, I question my intentions for starting a blog. I suppose my doubt is very common for beginner bloggers but I don't know for sure since I hardly read other blogs!

I would like to use this blog as a record for the past week. Also, I will include my future plans for the next couple of weeks because I may be away from my blog during this time.

So, on the job/work front, nothing new or exciting has happened. The position at UCLA did not come through. Nor have I heard anything from companies or faculty in the Bay Area. However, I did apply for another position at UCSB, which looks promising. I would love to live near the ocean again but being five hours from Colin by car is less than ideal...but it's better than 18 hours by plane!

This past week I saw the Donnas at Rota Fabrik. I never heard of the Donnas until about a month ago. They are a California band of four women in the mid twenties. Apparently, they went to the other high school in Palo Alto, which Colin's step brothers attended. Their songs were tacky and shallow. The titles of two songs I remember where "Who invited you?" and "Get out of my way" or something like that. They seemed to be a perfect band for Chico State.

The club, Rota Fabrik, was pretty rough for Zurich. It wasn't your typical, well-groomed Swiss crowd. I always like to see crowds like that which are not so up tight. Nicole was DJing before and after the band. She was the best part of the night and the reason why I went to the show.

Last night I went swimming again and then out with some of the guys from the team. It was pretty uneventful and I got to bed by 1AM. The rest of the week was similarly plain. I feel like I have lots of work to do but just not enough time! I made a list of reactions to do, which helps me get it all done.

Jo and Ev come tomorrow for a visit. I'll meet them at the airport and entertain them until I send them to Bern to meet Cathy and Barbara. I join them all again on Friday for a weekend in Zuoz. Jo, Ev, and Barbara are doing this cross country ski race next Sunday. I leave for the USA on the following Monday for two weeks.

I'm really excited to go back to California and see Colin. It's be fuckin' hard lately! We argue about being together but living so far apart. Sometimes we both feel like we are holding each other back from enjoying life but I know I don't want to be with any one else. It just sucks. I am trying to get back to California but I have to have a job first. He understands this but it's just so hard trying to talk with each other over the phone and understand things. It will be better when I can see him again.

We are going to fly to NM for a couple of days while I'm in the USA. This will be hard because of my parents. I won't see them, only Amy and Ian and my friends. But I'm happy to bring Colin back to NM with me to show him where I grew up.